Buy Into It

What has happened to me? I just don't know anymore.

I don't know when or where it happened. But it did. Somewhere down the line someone told me I wasn't good enough. And I believed them. Was it a person in particular or society in general?

(Sorry this post has been so-far emo. I'm just a little crazy sometimes. Newspaper makes me crazy)

When I bought into it, was when I started performing sub-par. I can't write anymore. I can't design. I can't lead. I can't... function. What has happened and how do I fix it?

Yeah, you say to just tell yourself that I'm good enough, but everyone on the internet knows that isn't that easy. In fact, it truly accomplishes nothing. Nothing.

I can't have any more nights at school this late. I can't lead a newspaper. I'm the most unqualified human on the face of the planet. Jon Gosselin might be more qualified to work InDesign than I am. That's saying a lot.

Ugghhhh. Sorry. I'm frustrated and I warned you in the title... it will be a feverish rant.

I'm going to sleep. I'm going to sleep on it. Maybe I'll feel better in the A.M. and after this semester is over... maybe not? We'll see.